It's almost a miracle that we have such an early Spring. In this city we rarely get Spring at all. March can still bring us snow and April drags on, rainy and cold and depressing until May which is usually pleasant but I've been to plenty of May weddings (and even some in June) where the weather can be cool and overcast and I've seen plenty of shivering brides posing for pictures. Not this year, however! March began like a lion but it's not only going out like a lamb, it's like a flock of them! Temperatures are in the low to mid-seventies these days, my garden is showing great signs of life and I've seen dozens of robins. All of which means -and you can't fool me! - it's Spring!
I'm continuing to train for my upcoming race and I'm still finding it very difficult to get back into running mode. My legs feel like lead and my breath just doesn't flow. I'm back to feeling like a smoker again, like I did at the beginning. I'm sure if I went back to read my first boot camp journal I would see that I found running difficult at first but then I quickly adapted. I think it was by about week eight that I found all the parts fitting together. The problem is, I don't have eight weeks. I've stepped up my running schedule to twice a week and have (I think) lengthened the running intervals though it's hard to tell without a stop watch and I do tire quickly. By the last interval this morning I was feeling less weary but I also cut the full length of the run by 10 minutes.
While running I was finally beginning to feel some of the clarity of mind I remember running used to give me. Once I stopped thinking about the discomfort in my body the thoughts flowed freely and I became one with the music I was listening to on my IPod. I always try to keep it upbeat and inspirational. This morning I heard the following: "Don't give up/ You've got a reason to live/Can't forget you only get what you give". It's from a one-hit wonder band called the New Radicals. It speaks to me. I have to give it more, with or without time.