Interval training on Monday at boot camp was a remarkable experience. By adding one more run per week when not training with Bruce I am getting faster and tire less quickly - and all I did was add one more 30 minute session! What this does for my mental health and self esteem is indescribable. I feel optimistic and believe there is a path out there for me and I will find it. So much better than wallowing in regret and 'what might have beens'.
We're training with a couple of other people who are not happy with their current state of fitness. They are both quite depressed about it and I find myself acting as cheerleader, remembering all too well how self-conscious and embarrassed about my own lack of fitness I once felt. I keep reminding one woman that she just had a baby and needs to cut herself some slack but she hates the size she has become and pushes herself very hard. She's an inspiration.
I still believe finding Bruce as a trainer and doing boot camp are two of the best things that have ever happened to me, though I should probably fit meeting Higgie and getting Lily in there somewhere too.